i've learnt that there are many ways to describe happiness. ecstatic, elated, blithe, buoyant.... but i will still choose to say, i am simply happy. there's no need to complicate happiness. it is as simple as it can get. although i may not have reached any of my goals in life (yet), but i know i have found happiness. superficiality aside. money may bring me happiness, but those are strings of temporary happiness. i have found a constant, something that can bring me immense joy without even needing a single cent. and that is love. as cliche as it sounds... it's love. even though there are unavoidable fights, i am still happy we get to fight with each other. at least i know the one im fighting with, is you. i have my family i want to protect and friends that i love.  im not sure i can think of anything else that can bring a person such joy.

im not good with words. i guess i typed out  all of that just in any case you chance upon this... i would want you to know that i am truly happy now, without a doubt. i am sorry my happiness might have costed yours. i am sorry i left you with no options to choose from. when the sun has set, no candle can replace the light that it gives. what is lost is lost. and god will only bring you nothing but set a better path for you. look forward and you will realise all the while, it's you who've been pulling yourself back. let it go, and you will see the light again. life may not have been good to you, but it will if you let it. believe it or not, we hold our own destiny in our hands. god can only lead us to it but we will have to do the rest of the work :)) 

with love, ys